Sunday, September 16, 2007

The Grandeur of "my" intensity.
The past 24 hours have indeed been great. After stepping into a few intensive programs through the WEL-Systems Institute with Louise LeBrun, today I realized that although I have learned so much and have chosen to live my life differently, I still was holding something back.

The weekend was not a program, it was simply conversations happening in an environment where everyone is open and honest and the spirit of Aloha (without judgement) was clearly present.

Show up and be present! This is all that Louise asks of anyone.

As the day progressed yesterday I could feel more intensity building up in my body. The fire energy is the side of me that I have kept hidden. Why? Because as a woman, I was brought up to be a good little girl. Well here's a point that I have to make and be clear on. I am no longer a little girl and I have presence and will not allow myself to be forced any longer to do or say anything that doesn't feel right for me.

Decloaking and living Authentically. This is a CD that I recorded with Louise LeBrun about 6 months after I stepped into my first WEL-Systems program. What I discover was that when you deny the truth of your own experience that moves through your body, you get sick. Interestingly enough, I have been sick since the age of six and off and on all through my adult life. That was up until about a year and a half ago. By Living Authentically, not only does your life change but so does your health. I don't know about you but at the risk of offending someone by me being honest, if that's what it takes to stay healthy then that is exactly what I'm going to do.

So now I embrace the edge that I have and realize that it's really not that bad. I was cautious because I had already changed my way of living and truly loved it but was scared that others wouldn't be able to embrace what I see and feel.

What I now know is, that your opinion of me is none of my business. And I can't presume to know what you're thinking because I'm not you, nor can you know what I'm thinking cause you're not me. We're all individuals and we all have our own opinions and they're all right. Why? Because we create what we perceive as truth. So your perception is right and my perception is right. No need to judge because we'd really only be judging ourselves.

Being Honest and True
Moment to moment - Breath to Breath

Amy